Raise Your Weapons

So, I was driving home yesterday. I have a lot of time to think while driving back and forth to work/home. I have always sort of had a child-like optimism... or maybe outlook is a better way of thinking of it. I could always be totally amazed by the possibilities of what the next moment may hold. The mystery, intrigue, curiosity. All because I didn't know what was about to happen in the very next moment. I think I may be losing that. I think I am finally getting to the point where I know the very next moment holds no mystery... all the possibilities are carved down to knowing that the very next moment will probably be just like this one. And the moment after that, the week after, the month after and this time next year, very little will probably have changed. That is depressing and if that is the way things are going to be, what's the point? That's boring. And for the life of me, I can't see the appeal of it.


Optimism is a funny thing anyway. It is sort of misleading in how it works. Optimism is the belief that something good will happen. But how can you keep being optimistic if that never comes to fruition? Yeah, it's easy if good things always happen when you expect them to. That's just sensible. But to continue or even attempt to be optimistic in the face of negative opposition, ... well I'm not sure what that is. Some would call it delusional. Some would say this person had a never-ending well of faith...(I hate that word) Personally... I believe if that is the case and someone is continually optimistic when always faced with negativity, in whatever context, then this person isn't dealing with reality and does not want to face facts. There's no point in living in a fantasy world... that just sets you up for disappointment. There's enough of that in the world without creating your own.