The Darkening of the Light

the light is white
I am new and have much to learn
going through life with wide-eyed optimism
introductions are brief
information and experiences are overwhelming

the light is gray
I am used and have much to learn
my optimism has failed me
cynicism has taken its place
I have learned much, enough to know nothing
the wounds from my experiences will stay with me forever
and still I open myself up to new encounters
infinitely curious, trying to satisfy an insatiable hunger

the light grows dark
I am wise, and have learned much
inward, I turn on my self
alone, I find myself most of the time
awaiting the lonliness, I will be tomorrow
welcomed, the Darkness is by me
curiosity satisfied, hunger appeased
at peace, I will be when I die
the light is black

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