The shit of it all

What's the point? Have you ever asked yourself that question? For me, the answer is obvious: Morbid Curiosity. I need to see what the next fucked up thing life will swing my way. My job. I am where I will be. There is no promotions. Not for what I do. And unless you are in the upper echelons of management, I am not sure "promotions" are a real thing anyway. Not in the sense that most people know them anyway. I think most modern promotions are basically just added responsibility with no increase in pay. So, what's the point? You have to pay your bills... but how much of your bills are in support of or because of your job? And if you boil it down, why would you want that kind of life anyway? Humans are supposed to be LIVING life... not just existing, not just getting by... the majority of us don't ever have that opportunity. By the time we've worked long enough and hard enough to get to a point where we can, financially, enjoy life, we're old. Well I'm old anyway. And I'm nowhere near financially able to enjoy life. I can't even afford to take a vacation. I've never really been able to wrap my mind around that anyway - go somewhere, pay hundreds to thousands of dollars a week to sleep in a hotel because it happens to be by an ocean... or close to an ocean. It's just another example of how I do not belong in the ranks of the mass retards that walk this planet. I swear, the more I am around people and the more I tell myself I can handle the overheard stories about their annoying kids or deal with seeing them out in public in their fucking pajamas, the more I seriously do not want to be part of this population. And forget trying to reach out to someone on any kind of personal, emotional level - WITHOUT FAIL, people's selfish tendencies kick in and they take your moment of weakness, your one moment where you open up to someone, you take the advice of friends and reach out to another human being and they take that opportunity to piss on your need. So fuck em. Fuck them every one. Seriously - a cabin in the mountains by myself is sounding better and better all the time.