A New Beginning... maybe

Ok, so for the last 6 months or so I have been unemployed. Hence no posts. Haven't really felt like celebrating the fact that I had no job and for all intents and purpose, served no real function in life. But ding, ding, the witch is dead - now I have a job. I should be elated. Not so much. Here's the thing - there's always a thing, while I am very thankful for having an income, and for the amount of that income, this whole profession - that of IT, I hate it. I don't really give a crap about technology, if it wasn't for porn, I would do away with my computers. This *thing* isn't my career, it's just a job... and therein lies the problem. No matter how much money I make, no matter how urgent my particular profession is made out to be, and how much of an integral part of the machine my part really plays, I don't ever feel that way. I don't feel as though what I do matters, because I really don't care about what I do. There's no challenge, it doesn't force me to try and be better. It comes easy. It just sort of flows... works... happens. And because of that, I have become stagnate as a person, I believe. That's why I have decided to meet the realtor tomorrow, and look a the old Basin Creek restaurant. I am seriously considering buying it and starting something of my own design. I don't have any misconceptions about getting rich off running a restaurant, and in fact, it may very well fail and I'll be back here again. But whether it fails or whether it succeeds, it will be a direct result of my actions. I don't know what I will call it yet, I don't know what kind of place it will be... I don't have all the details yet, I do know there will be a small lounge area with a couch and a couple of chairs... maybe a hookah. Maybe not. Not sure about the hookah. And who knows, none of this may come to fruition. I may get shunted at the bank and knocked down a few pegs. But at least I tried. And i may even succeed. I'm just tired of working for other people and not having anything of my own. I'm tired of not having an answer to the question "so, what have you been up to lately..."