New day dawning

But I know we all can't stay here forever,
so I want to write my words on the face of today.
and then they'll paint it
And oh as I fade away,
they'll all look at me and they'll say,
Hey look at him and where he is these days.
When life is hard, you have to change.
                                        - Blind Melon - Change

I think that's fitting for the mood I'm in. But I want to amend that sentiment: You have to change, even when life isn't hard. If you stay static, you will be static. "If you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always gotten". I think some people have no problem with this. It's easy to continue doing what you are doing. It rewards you with familiarity and in that, security and a peace of mind that comes with knowing you have a base of operations - a place to go when you need to unwind, chill out and recharge your batteries. Things here will be predictable and you are in total control. But the down side to that is just that very thing - predictability. Sometimes, that familiarity can get to be monotonous and you need to change things up and see what happens. While I believe "The Secret" was a scam, I do believe in the power of positive thinking, which is basically what that was all about. I believe also, that there are, all around us, patterns of the universe. We just have to be able to recognize them. That gets a little in to the book, "God's Debris", but still relevant, I believe. Point being, like the butterfly effect, your actions have consequences, and those consequences can reverberate back and have an affect on your actions. Ad infinitum.

I have recently taken this theory to the next level and have attempted some experiments. Now, don't misunderstand and think I am some genius-level intelligent type. Not so much, I simply wanted my life to change, so I did it more out of necessity than any curiosity of whether or not it would actually work... It does. Or so it seems. It could be that the things that are different in my life, have always been there, and are actually not different, I just have never noticed before, a new pattern, as it were. Point being, I have actively started doing things over the past month or so, that I have purposefully stayed away from before because they were things that made me uncomfortable, or because I thought it would cause me stress or drama... truth is, we as a species are much more adaptable than we give ourselves credit for. Or maybe I should say, as individuals... Or at least I am. This is scary new territory for me and I have no idea what to expect... I am on unfamiliar ground and each step I take is a new experience for me. That is good and bad. Good is everything is new... bad is I am not necessarily in control here. That's something else I am not used to. But so far, the results of stepping outside of my bubble have been good. Ultimately, that and my happiness, and interest are all that matters. And so far, I am happy, I am interested and at the risk of sounding a little conceited, I am proud of the steps I have taken and the efforts put forth. yay me.