New Horizons

Epiphanies are a funny thing... sort of a love/hate relationship going on there. I guess ultimately it depends entirely on the epiphany. The realization that you no longer care about television and resulting cancellation of your cable account, can be a good epiphany, with a good result. The realization that you do not come off to other people as you see yourself in your head, well that could be an epiphany of a different color altogether. Because if you are the type who considers things, who thinks about stuff... who manages, somehow, on every single conscious day to find some new and as yet unexplored facet to your life to question and delve in to, then this may be somewhat of an identity crisis. e.g. a bad epiphany. This happened to me recently. And while I haven't fallen completely in to the identity crisis black hole, I am teetering on the edge. I guess I'm just tired of things. I really give a shit what people think of me. I am who I am and other people's opinions be damned. Thing is, I am not an offensive person. Or I don't mean to be... and sometimes, apparently, I do just that inadvertently, when offense is the farthest from my mind. I don't know if it is a lack of ability to express accurately what I feel... or if somewhere along the way my wires just got crossed up... and when I think I'm being funny, as it turns out, I am being cruel. Or something. IDK. With a total of what, ten lines? I have already spent entirely too much energy on this BS.

So I'm in atlanta for ten days. I like atlanta. Seems like people here are pretty laid back, which I didn't expect at all. But what I like best about it is while it is a proper city, whoever designed it, did a good thing and left in the trees. Everywhere you look there are trees. Trees lining streets, trees in the middle of city blocks, trees down the center of the street - it's awesome. It puts me in the mind of some ancient, old civilization that is living in concert with the environment around it. This weekend is going to be boring as hell. Lots of stuff to do, but I get bored doing stuff by myself... There is a concert tonight though, in the courtyard - I may go to that... depending on what kind of music it is... but I think this is all for now. Time to get back to work.