So, for a while now, I have sort of been on the fence about chaos versus order in the universe. I have always wanted to believe in order - that there is logic, rhyme, reason to why things happen. If you're a good person and you do good deeds, good things will happen to you. If you work hard, you will get promoted, you will get a raise. If you drive carefully, you will be safe and have low insurance premiums. Sadly, I have recently given in and succumbed to reality: The Universe cannot be based on order because no matter what you do, no matter how you are, no matter what you deserve, sometimes shit just happens... or doesn't happen. It is rarely based on anything you as an individual actually do. The bottom line of this is, you should never do something because of what the outcome may be - you should only ever do things because you want or need to. Do it because it is what you want, do it because you enjoy it or because you believe it should be done. Because if you go through life doing shit based on what you think or hope may happen because you did something, you will be CONSTANTLY disappointed.
This flies in the face of the "butterfly effect ripple theory" that I have about how every action causes some reaction... every thing you do, every movement, every thought, etc... I still believe that b/c it's different than what I'm talking about here. One is a belief that things happen based on your actions, the other is a belief that your actions have consequences and could be catalyst for causing other things to happen in a chain reaction of sorts... I know that sounds similar, but it isn't... it's just that a text-based form of communication isn't the best forum for trying to explain something as shapeless as this.
Example - I posted yesterday or something... about change. Specifically, me, stepping out of my zone of comfort. It was an experiment I suppose... an effort on my part to change, and see what would happen. Again, the correct way to do this is to change b/c it is what I want... not because of what I was hoping would happen... because what I was hoping didn't happen... and ultimately this proves my point that really, it doesn't matter what we do... we cannot dynamically cause things to happen or not happen in the universe. There is no relation, either inverse or direct, to what we do and what happens to us. But hey, nothing ventured, nothing gained... or in this case, nothing lost.
One thing I do know for sure, hindsight is a fucking bitch. Living life looking in the rear view mirror is no fun at all.
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